Celtic Daily PrayerToday, I had a great plan to write a *hopefully* great post about limitations. But like most plans that I think are great, God had a different idea.

This morning was blessedly peaceful- I had a slow and quiet breakfast followed by an exciting and invigorating work meeting. An hour later, my bubble of peace and contentment threatened to pop when I received an unexpected phone call from a loved one.  I can’t go into many details but it revolved around a miscommunication that resulted in some off-putting consequences in our relationship which, over the last year, has been riddled with tension. Feelings were hurt and circumstances prohibited us from reconciling during the conversation. After I got off the phone, those familiar feelings of unease, anxiety, and loneliness, with hints of hopelessness, began to creep in. All of a sudden, my peaceful day threatened to collapse after one, unexpected phone call.

In God’s crazy way, right after this phone call, as I was contemplating who I could reach out to for prayer and wisdom, a mentor of mine called and told me I had been on her mind all day! It was helpful to talk with her, process, and gain a

Image by NBC Oh Michael, you just get me!

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Oh Michael, you just get me!

fresh perspective. God knew exactly in that moment and he provided.

But I’m still feeling weirded out. If you watch The Office, Michael Scott would describe this feeling as “eerie”- pronounced “EYE-ree”. I’m sick of feeling “EYE-ree”- so much so that I find funny ways to talk about it. (I am convinced that levity is crucial in seasons of waiting and uncertainty. But I digress.) This phone call is just one part of a long season of waiting and uncertainty. Will my relationships always be this way? Will I continue to feel stuck in my job and personal life? The title of my blog is fitting, water in the desert, because God and I have been wandering around in this desert for awhile and I’m not sure when he’s going to lead us out of it.

All of this has me continually asking the questions: Where are you at in this, God? What are you doing? And he keeps bringing me back to the same truth. This truth has been presenting itself to me over and over, through various conversations with friends, through sermons at church, through passages I’m reading in the Bible, and everyday in a book of prayers called Celtic Daily Prayer.

Later in the day, I turned to the afternoon prayer in Celtic Daily Prayer. As I read the final blessing, again God spoke this truth to me.

Let nothing disturb thee,
nothing affright thee;
all things are passing,
God never changes!
Patient endurance attaineth to all things;
who God possesses
in nothing is wanting;
alone God suffices.

God was again, reminding me that no matter how unsteady my life feels or how uncertain my present and future are, he is steady, he is constant. All things are passing, God never changes. Some days I believe this deep down in my bones. Other days, it’s a struggle to even whisper these words under my breath. Today was the latter. But I have to believe it’s true, I have to believe that in this season of wandering and waiting, on the other side is deeper patience and greater endurance. That, alone, God truly does suffice.

If this is not true, if our life and its struggles are meaningless, if God is anemic and not all-powerful, then what’s the point? I have to, I need to, believe in a God that sees our seasons of pain, uncertainty and waiting with a greater purpose in mind. A God that is active and not passive. A God that is Emmanuel, God with us.

So I will keep speaking this truth, over and over, trusting in my God to make good on his word.

Let nothing disturb thee,
nothing affright thee;
all things are passing,
God never changes!
Patient endurance attaineth to all things;
who God possesses
in nothing is wanting;
alone God suffices.


 

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